I haven’t posted in 2 years! I took some time off to reflect and take some much needed personal time. I felt like I needed to figure some things out for myself before I could attempt to help others. Since I had decided that competing in fitness type competitions wasn’t for me, I had to find out how to re-balance my lifestyle to feel comfortable and happy. I knew that the lifestyle I was leading was taking too much of my time and they didn’t reflect my values.
The first thing I did was I took about a month off from the gym. I needed to free myself from the addiction I had to it. Realize that it’s not a big deal if I don’t go. At the time I was working out 6 days a week and felt sore and tired all the time. I also started to resent the gym. What happened to my love and passion for it? I stopped following a lot of fitness people on all my social media so that I would stop comparing myself and to rid myself of caring so much about body image. I started eating a vegan diet because I was SICK of eating meat and the “bodybuilder” type diet. My point to do that was to realize that not just one type of diet works. I can base my diet on the lifestyle and the values I personally have. After a month or so of no gym and a different diet, I felt a little different, but guess what? My body didn’t change too much. I wasn’t all of a sudden overweight and the sky didn’t fall. This meant, being so controlling over myself was wasted effort. Slowly I got myself back into the gym and back to eating meat. I no longer track my food in a diary, I no longer take progress pictures of myself, I no longer feel bad about eating whatever I want and I have respect and love for myself no matter what my body looks like. I also only go to the gym about 4 times a week now (compared to 6). I still mostly lift weights with plyometrics and I picked up jump roping too.
My health journey didn’t end, but it went into a different direction. It was no longer about getting validation but instead, it was about finding what I care about. For example, now I’m reading a book on Zero Waste by Bea Johnson. The book is about living a more simple life and reducing your waste (Trash) to almost zero. Check out her blog here: http://zerowastehome.blogspot.com/
Other books I read for my personal growth:
Boundaries by Townsend and Cloud
Safe People by Townsend and Cloud
The Celestine Prophecy by James Redfield
The Urban Farm Handbook by Annette Cottrell
Here are some recent pictures just for fun.
I recently won tickets to an Angel's v. Red Sox game from my work. Finally! I usually don't win stuff. What's even more exciting is that I got selected to be the Honorary Game Ball Delivery person. That means I got to place the ball on the mound after the national anthem and before the first pitch of the game! I was so excited and honored to get to stand on the field during the national anthem. Never guessed I'd see myself on the jumbotron while the announcer said my name! I was pretty geeked about the whole experience.